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For some reason, I can’t keep my eyes off the short loop. There’s beauty in nature and in daily experiences. I think most people depend on others or a lot of money to feel this happiness, but I think,
happiness is always a state of mind.
Gonna
i'm just gonna sit there. beside them. quietly, with occasional laughs. i'm gonna look straight to their eyes and pretend i know nothing. i'm gonna do my own things and gradually finish all the unfinished matters even if the result might not be impeccable. i'm gonna close my ears and just gonna smile. i'm gonna keep smiling until i can't differentiate the ache between my heart or my mouth. i never ever gonna show them how much they devastated me.
"I am not sad,
he would repeat to himself over and over,
I am not sad.
As if he might one day convince himself.
Or fool himself.
Or convince others--
the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad.
I am not sad.
I am not sad."
Gonna
i'm just gonna sit there. beside them. quietly, with occasional laughs. i'm gonna look straight to their eyes and pretend i know nothing. i'm gonna do my own things and gradually finish all the unfinished matters even if the result might not be impeccable. i'm gonna close my ears and just gonna smile. i'm gonna keep smiling until i can't differentiate the ache between my heart or my mouth. i never ever gonna show them how much they devastated me.
"I am not sad,
he would repeat to himself over and over,
I am not sad.
As if he might one day convince himself.
Or fool himself.
Or convince others--
the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad.
I am not sad.
I am not sad."
