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For some reason, I can’t keep my eyes off the short loop. There’s beauty in nature and in daily experiences. I think most people depend on others or a lot of money to feel this happiness, but I think, happiness is always a state of mind.

Happy Ending?
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Happy ending never really suits me well.
You chose not to stay. You chose to give up on us, then i let you go.
I tried so hard to forget about you
I tried to be a better person
I could do everything on my own
And not to rely my happiness on anyone else but myself

I met this one guy who truly cared about me.
He was waiting for me to change, to be able to love him more than i loved you.
To make my life better than what once we had.
And i decided to open my heart up and saw what could happen.

But then you came again. You turned my world upside down.
You made me feel safe and made me think i worth it.
You apologized to me, you hug me.
You promised me to never let go
You promised you would never leave
...
I chose you over him.
You made me happy once again.

There was no words of praise or flattery, and no romantic or a great deed. Only simple words and simple actions. As simple as that , i fell for you.

however i thought happy ending doesn't suit me very well.
We were getting tired with same mistakes and we thought we should stop trying.
Putting efforts was just useless because we both knew it wouldnt work
We talked less until we didnt talk anymore
No more text messages, no more surprise calls
And as simple as i fell for you, you simply disappeared from my life

You once were the reason why even in my saddest day i smiled
And even in my worst night i was still able to hold on my tears
I thought i didnt need to look any further while in you i've found a reason to live; being happy with you.

But yeah.. Happy ending just doesnt suit me very well.

" You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines
You say that you love the wind, but you close the windows when the wind blows
That's why im afraid when you say you love me too "


// Dedicated to those two people who once make me feel special.

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